Blegh

Freezing rain
One night stands you have known
Going home now

Porno Boy

You lie before me
Your legs spread wide
Your hairless armpits exposed
Your rosebud hole
Sunken and welcoming
You don't argue
Or demand your own way
You invite me inside
By not moving, breathing, resisting
In fact
Your body exudes no warmth
Nor glistening lips perfume
Your legs as smooth as my computer screen
Your arms so still as if fixed
Your hair, moves not
Fixed with the best of spray
Not a twitch do you betray
Not a breath from your lips
Nor a beat from your nape
Not a heave of your chest
Nor sweat from your brow
Nor ANYTHING AT ALL
You are not alive
Perhaps you once were
You cannot yield
You cannot resist
You cannot comply
Or will me away
You cannot enjoy
You cannot cry pains
Nothingness
Emptiness
My mind's wish to be loved
It's fears if rejected
It's dread of control
And yielding to anger
Or hatred
Or spite and violence
Fear of anything at all
You are not to be feared
You are not to be loved
To yield
Or care
Or see or react
Absolute safety
And absolute regret
Of a life not lived
Friends not made
Lovers not held
Passions not felt
And exhaustions unshared
All is emptiness
Loneliness
Shame anger, and abandonment